When I was younger, I was always trying to prove how tough and capable I was. If it was destructive, I probably did it.
I drank too much, I smoked too much, I ate food that was bad for me, I was in one bad relationship after the other. I never let anyone get too close.
My body managed to withstand all the “tough” assaults I put on it for a long time, too. But as I got older, it was like my body shouted, “The jig is up!”
My body was frozen. I couldn’t take it anymore. And as for my spirit… It was ready to finally be released.
As everything started to fall apart around me, I realized I had been living a lie my whole life, and my body was literally revolting against how I was holding my true nature back. But, I could no longer sustain that kind of lifestyle. Those defenses I thought were protecting me were slowly killing me.
But my acquiescence to the “real” me was slow.
My whole life I had felt like the square peg in the round hole, so it was incredibly hard to let that go. It’s amazing what we will let ourselves get used to just to avoid change.
But I had to do it. I had to succumb to my true nature.
It turned out I was intuitive, sensitive and anxious to the bone.
I used all of my defensive tactics to hide, cover up, and safeguard that person in me that seemed to feel everything too much and too often.
Even though I pretended to have it all together - you know, good job, good education, etc. - I had built a wall around me the size of Texas, and it wouldn’t let anyone in - and it wouldn’t let me out.
The only time I ever experienced solace and peace might surprise you…
It was when I was hanging out with my spirit guides or playing with a deck of tarot cards or reading a book on spirituality or meditating. There was just one small problem with that….
That which brought me peace brought me a tremendous amount of strife in my everyday life.
You see, I grew up in a very old-fashioned family, and you don’t just go around saying “om” and “I think your heart chakra is out of balance” to conservative folks unless you want to be looked at like you have four heads. My corporate job was the same way; I spent my day with ‘on the straight and narrow’ intellectuals. I think you catch my drift here. I knew full well it was not safe to go around talking “unicorns and rainbows.”
So I had done what any “tough” girl would do - I pretended to be someone else.
If you’re still reading this, I imagine you can relate to my story. You’ve always felt a little different; you were never sure exactly how, and you never knew quite what to do with it.
I spent the last decade accessing this ‘intuition,' this ‘inner knowing’,'this ‘ability’, and I want to tell you that it’s so much easier than everyone lets on.
It’s easy to go from ‘not sure’ to being much more comfortable, not only with your abilities but with yourself.
All you need to do is just spend a little time every day accessing what the universe gave you. And it was given to you for a reason.
I think it’s really important to talk about intuition in a way anyone can understand. It should be down to earth and accessible. Not obscure and only for a chosen few.
There are so many misconceptions about spiritual abilities that the whole thought of taking a journey down that road can be daunting.
But I am here to tell you that you do not have to be special. You do not have to have been in some tragic, life-altering situation that made you see the light. You do not have to have experience seeing passed-over loved ones since the age of five. You don’t have to be anything but who you are to access your intuition and spirit guides.
You may be hearing a voice telling you that you don’t have the time for this. Or that you’re not really gifted and you’re making all this up in your head. But if you’re here, on this site, then acknowledge the voice, and move on – because you, my friend, are an intuitive or as I like to call them, ‘highly sensory people’.
I work a little differently then a lot of my spiritual teacher counterparts. I focus first and foremost on Spirit Guides. I get you connected and communicating with yours. Because when you do that everything else falls into place.
I feel it’s so important to help others who think they may have abilities acknowledge that and step into them. Intuitives are healers and if you can help even one person then this world is a better place.
Remember, We need you; this world needs your abilities and your unique input - and only you hold the key.